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Recollection EP

by Benn Park

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1.
Solid Doubt 03:54
Are you awake In another man's arms? Under someone else's charm? How are your dreams? That fantasy Excluding me Are there better vibes That he gives off For you to snuff and get by? How are the lies Whispered in your ear? Taking away your fears [Chorus 1] And I don't want to cry That you've gained better than I At least you flung your fist out At my mouth and shattered my solid doubt Devastating you I should've assumed Apologies were never enough At the verge Of becoming worse Thank god you stopped [Chorus 1] And I don't want to cry That you'ved gained better than I At least you flung your fist out At my mouth and shattered my solid doubt Hands going cold As I wrapped my fingers Around yours Diverted eyes There was something better You had in sight [Chorus 2] And I can't even read the Pages on your book The letters foreign and the ink rubbed out Who'd take a look? No, I don't want to cry That you've gained better than I At least you flung your fist out At my mouth and shattered my solid doubt
2.
I don't want to sleep tonight It's four o'clock in the morning I don't want to sleep tonight I'm just not up to conforming I don't want to hit the lights I don't want to lie down crying I don't want to sleep tonight And dream of these false silver linings I don't want to close my eyes Where monsters might be lurking I don't want to say goodbye Or these bridges might start burning I don't want to tell a lie Though the truth can just be as degrading I don't want to satisfy These sour thoughts that keep on swimming [Chorus 1] But don't give pity for my troubles 'Cause that's what songwriting is for The doom and gloom is temporary When positivity leads it out the back door I don't want my alibis Reminding me of broken fences I don't want my alibis Making me feel so pretentious And make me undermine The troubles that await me still In the presence of my biggest vice Tempting me to lose grip of my will [Chorus 2] But don't give pity for my troubles 'Cause that's what songwriting is for The doom and gloom is temporary When positivity leads it out the back door And it's not that people don't deserve some love and care But we all have the power to move on You can choose to put a front But I'll decide when the negatives will be gone I don't want to sleep tonight My imagination's running water I don't want to sleep tonight And turn my focus into fodder I already recognize The obstacles in my path I just need some peace of mind No matter how long that may last
3.
Goliath 04:09
Facing the giant Knowing how to take it down It looks so easy Stone in sling But I can't seem to conquer the beast My flaws are what it feeds Oh, how he reigns Down on my disgrace, readying my grave How much more can I take? [Chorus 1] I've written words to inspire Or music to spark one's fire But sometimes, I feel like the same boy Who needs a mother's love [Bridge] Maybe I was never good enough Maybe it just doesn't take much To bring me down Bring me down Maybe I was never good enough Maybe it just doesn't take much To bring me down Bring me down My father said Only I can take on the giant I guess he's right [Chorus 2] I've written words to inspire Or music to spark one's fire But sometimes, I feel like the same boy Who needs a mother's love Writing letters together to sound wiser But I guess my biggest desire Is to find myself in the deepest of caves Where no one else should go
4.
I never thought I've give my high school days a second glance But my mind's wandered back to the day when we first danced You let me be your date to prom, even when I was being wrong For thinking that you'd give my love a chance Never thought I'd still feel giddy to remember you sing As I back you on guitar, you made my spirit sprout wings And during our times in choir, I know I'm not a liar When I say that your voice sounds like the morning birds in Spring [Chorus 1] And even if those times are long, long gone Those memories still linger in my mind I long to wait for you to come back to me So we can sing and dance and form new memories You were such a pretty sight, oh how you gave off peaceful vibes Though we haven't spoken much since we danced that night I never had a stronger urge to write such silly strings of words But when I think of you, I hope that everything's all right [Chorus 2] And even if those times are long, long gone Those memories still linger in my mind I long to wait for you to come back to me So we can sing and dance and form new memories A couple years can turn into a couple centuries But I'm still/so thankful for the little things you helped me to achieve And even if we don't see each other again Thank you, my beautiful friend It's 4am right now, I'm reminiscing of the past It sucks how such blissful moments like these don't really last I wish I had more time to get to know you better Though I'm writing how I think about you down in this letter [Chorus 2] And even if those times are long, long gone Those memories still linger in my mind I long to wait for you to come back to me So we can sing and dance and form new memories A couple years can turn into a couple centuries But I'm still/so thankful for the little things you helped me to achieve And even if we don't see each other again Thank you, my beautiful friend Thank you, my beautiful friend Thank you, my beautiful friend Thank you, my beautiful friend Thank you, my beautiful friend
5.
I can't pursue you You've got to take the reigns yourself I won't pursue you I'll be sitting right back on the shelf But please consider That walking down that path won't get you help And please remember You can overcome what's turning you to someone else Just like your ex-girlfriend Or every model on T.V. *It'll never go away If you keep on lending offerings I'm just a bunch of words That tell some not-so-subtle truths But then the choice was yours So now the joke's on you [Chorus] Facing your back, behind cellar doors Please listen to these last words I say Covering your ears, trapped in the corner Please listen before it's too late The friends that left you Could come back if you made the call I know it's been a while Since you last intake of adderall You leave an anchor To give you pain to numb the blame & keep your head geared sideways As you face NO! shame NO! shame NO! shame NO! [Chorus] Facing your back, behind cellar doors Please listen to these last words I say Covering your ears, trapped in the corner Please listen before it's too late [Chorus] Facing your back, behind cellar doors Please listen to these last words I say Covering your ears, trapped in the corner Please listen before it's too late

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Every song on the EP either tells of a time & place or sends a message. They are also outlets for me to re-reflect on past experiences, mistakes, and lessons learned. Hopefully, you, the listener, can get something from this too.

I want to thank Debra Sawyer and the committee at the Three Oaks A&E Center for choosing me as part of their Local Musician Development Fund (LMDF). None of this would've been possible without all of you.

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released October 1, 2016

Recorded at the Three Oaks Arts & Education Center (Three Oaks, MI)
www.schoolofamericanmusic.com/three-oaks-arts-education-center

All songs performed by Ben Park
Cover art by Ali Schrubba.

"Solid Doubt" - Benn Park
"I Don't Want To Sleep Tonight" - Benn Park
"Goliath" - Benn Park
"Thank You, My Beautiful Friend" - Benn Park
"Please Listen" - Benn Park

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Benn Park Nashville, Tennessee

According to Benn, music-making is a creative, therapeutic response to the human condition. Included in that response are the rewards and defeats of 21st-century adulthood. These days, Benn Park happens to express this worldview through original folk and alt-country songs. ... more

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